The Ugly Philanthropist

Alhamdulillah ! Good to be back in the writing world :) I was on hiatus for the past ten days because it was the first ten days of Zulhijjah and I was planning to focus more on my ibadah. Besides, I was feeling very unmotivated (googled the difference with demotivated but can't differentiate these two !), uninspired and plain lazy. I didn't even update my planner.(where I write the highlights of the day) That's how 'unmotivated' I was. 

So last night, I was free and planning on updating this blog and my gratitude blog. But, got distracted and went on Omegle anddd found some interesting people (4 people to be exact). It was quite a long chat with each of them and sedar-sedar dah pukul 11pm. 

The ugly philanthropist

The first one was a frustrated guy who's upset with life.As usual, mula-mula I asked him why he's here on Omegle. He said he just needs someone to talk to and to get some air cuz he's been thinking about his past lover and it's been bothering his mind. I was a little stunned when he said 'past lover'. I've never heard of anyone use that.Usually just 'ex-bf' or 'ex-gf'. Past lover sounds much nicer kan. 

Then,he told me how 'nice but ugly' people don't have a place in this world. Nobody cares about them no matter how kind they are just because they're ugly. I think he was referring to himself. He said he does so many good things but orang pandang sebelah mata je. I felt sorry for him but instead of telling him to be patient or whatnot, I asked him what were the good deeds that he did. 

Him :I like to donate food, help the poor, volunteer as many as I can and just be kind to random strangers

Him : I feel good doing all these but sometimes I just can't bear it when what I did means nothing to people

Me :  I know this is hard, but you need to learn to give without expecting anything in return 

Him : I don't expect anything really, just that, sometimes I need someone to ask me if i'm okay, how have I been, and you know, just a little bit of appreciation

Me : I understand. Don't worry my friend. He will reward you in abundance in ways you could never imagine 

Him : Thank you, you're a nice person

I changed the subject to let it off his mind for a while and asked,

Me : What's your biggest dream ? 

Him : I wanna be happy and people around me to be happy 

Me : Well, that's too general. But if's that's what you want, then, it's okay. 

Him : Well, if you ask me, personally, I wanna get a degree, get married, make my wife pregnant while I'm doing master ( yang ni I gelak sikit haha), continue until PhD and eventually become a philanthropist. 

Me : Philanthropist? It's a familiar word but I don't remember what it means 

Him : Google it up 

Me : Haha okayy I will 

Then tetiba he said he wanna take me out on a date if I want to. Haha tetiba je kan. 

Me : Why would you that ? You don't even know me pun

Him : That's why people date, to get to know each other 

Me : I see, but I'm a little...conservative ? I don't do dates, plus I'm fat la haha 

Him : Haha ala takpe, gemuk boleh kurus 

Me : You have no idea how big I am....

Him : I don't care 

 

Then suddenly dia senyap hahahaha maybe he was having second thought like "Besar sangat ke minah ni ?" lol then when he didn't reply me but didn't disconnect, I just said goodbye and have a nice day and left lol. 

Philanthropist ? That's a nice ambition kan. I wanna be that too lah. 

Oh anyway, the biggest philanthropist in the world (according to Google) is Bill Gates, who has contributed $28 billion to the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation. Kaya nak mamsssss. Sedekah pun dah 28 billion, I wonder aset dia worth berapa do. Okay just googled. Over 100 billion dollar la net worth dia bapak kaya sia. Goalssssss. 

Hey dia ada blog laa.  Click here! So nice ! 

Okay la I think enough update for this entry. Nak update July summary pulaks. Bye !

Love, 

Bie