Like Attracts Like
There's so much in my mind, so much to google, so much to share, but I just can't keep my head straight and tell you from A to Z. All I can say is I'm starting to pick up my broken pieces and it's been so long since I felt that contentment.
Saturday,18th of July 2020.
It was just a normal makan-makan session at Enek's crib. After done eating, I went straight to the mini library they have in the dining hall. Usually, and most of the time, I would just look at the books, felt in awe with the amount of books, and just left. Sometimes I do pick up a book or two to scan through but only to feel bored and put them back on the shelves. My eyes always scan the books by Jeffrey Archer and John Grisham but I never felt I was 'smart enough' to read and understand that kind of books. I mean, I do have my own collection of Jeffrey Archer's. Enjoyed reading them but not much attraction there.
But on that day, yes, two days ago, I saw the book The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I wasn't surprised at all because I think I've seen this book couple of times and I knew what the book is all about. In fact, I came to know about the law of attraction mentioned in the book back in 2013 already. In my mind, I thought "Yeah, positive mindset. Same old same". I mean, don't we all know already ? Positive thoughts > negative thoughts right ?
But I took the book anyway, and started reading...and guess what...I kept reading and reading and I've never read that long for as long as I can remember. By the time I need to go back home, I've finished 3/4 of the book and that was a huge accomplishment for me haha. To be honest, the contents of the book are somehow common and already known by many of us. But I still kept on reading because I wanna know how these people explain about positivity from their own perspectives and of course based on what they learn and experienced. I mean, they were from different backgrounds, so curiosity gets me.
It was an unexplainable feeling. Takdelah faham sangat pun apa diorang tulis. Just that, I love the fact that I read and able to keep reading and reading. Haha hope this is understandable.
So anyway, long story short, what happens next was a-ma-zing. I played Omegle and met quite a few interesting people. Not the usual horny and boring people I usually get. The best part was, I met a doctor who was extremely inspirational but talks a lot lol. Lepas ni I need to spend an hour googling about everything he shared with me and how I wish I could memorize his words and use it to impress others lol.
I told akak about it and of course she said all the negative things about him. I totally understand because he's a stranger + online + omegle where majority wants sex talk, but when I asked her, "Okay minus the bad stuff, tell me what's good" to which she she said "Takde". Oh come onnnnn. Haha but takpelah, I guess she's worried sick and trying to protect me so she didn't want to tell me how interesting this guy is :P
To end this, no, my life has not changed lol. I'm still a potato who wants to be a billionaire.
In fact, just now I salin passages from a blog and wrote it in my journal, and why didn't I think of that before ?I've always thought journalling means pouring your hearts out with your OWN WORDS, but hey, copy kerja orang pun boleh as long as you don't publish it kan? Guys am I blabbering lolz what's my point lah.
I'm just saying that, it's okay for me to re-write other people's writings cuz it calms me.....okay so? Sooooo idk.
Here's a beautiful excerpt from a blog shaelaiza.com,
We may not understand God’s plans for us sometimes and why we are blessed with certain gifts or why we have to endure certain challenges but it is important to remember that everything has its time and purpose. The way He responds to our prayers, whether hastens or delays, it is not to make us feel proud or despair, but to remind us that ultimately, we were created to love and serve Him and His creations in the best ways possible. So if He tests you with with loss and pain remember that they are from the one Who loves us more than our own mothers do: Allah who is ar-Rahman (the Lord of Mercy) and ar-Raheem (the Giver of Mercy). When I learned to increase my good opinion of Allah I began to remember what it meant to love Him sincerely.
So much to learn and I'm so glad that I'm so eager and wanting to write(again), my long lost passionnn. Alhamdulillah ya Rabb.
Love,
Bie
Saturday,18th of July 2020.
It was just a normal makan-makan session at Enek's crib. After done eating, I went straight to the mini library they have in the dining hall. Usually, and most of the time, I would just look at the books, felt in awe with the amount of books, and just left. Sometimes I do pick up a book or two to scan through but only to feel bored and put them back on the shelves. My eyes always scan the books by Jeffrey Archer and John Grisham but I never felt I was 'smart enough' to read and understand that kind of books. I mean, I do have my own collection of Jeffrey Archer's. Enjoyed reading them but not much attraction there.
But on that day, yes, two days ago, I saw the book The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I wasn't surprised at all because I think I've seen this book couple of times and I knew what the book is all about. In fact, I came to know about the law of attraction mentioned in the book back in 2013 already. In my mind, I thought "Yeah, positive mindset. Same old same". I mean, don't we all know already ? Positive thoughts > negative thoughts right ?
But I took the book anyway, and started reading...and guess what...I kept reading and reading and I've never read that long for as long as I can remember. By the time I need to go back home, I've finished 3/4 of the book and that was a huge accomplishment for me haha. To be honest, the contents of the book are somehow common and already known by many of us. But I still kept on reading because I wanna know how these people explain about positivity from their own perspectives and of course based on what they learn and experienced. I mean, they were from different backgrounds, so curiosity gets me.
It was an unexplainable feeling. Takdelah faham sangat pun apa diorang tulis. Just that, I love the fact that I read and able to keep reading and reading. Haha hope this is understandable.
So anyway, long story short, what happens next was a-ma-zing. I played Omegle and met quite a few interesting people. Not the usual horny and boring people I usually get. The best part was, I met a doctor who was extremely inspirational but talks a lot lol. Lepas ni I need to spend an hour googling about everything he shared with me and how I wish I could memorize his words and use it to impress others lol.
I told akak about it and of course she said all the negative things about him. I totally understand because he's a stranger + online + omegle where majority wants sex talk, but when I asked her, "Okay minus the bad stuff, tell me what's good" to which she she said "Takde". Oh come onnnnn. Haha but takpelah, I guess she's worried sick and trying to protect me so she didn't want to tell me how interesting this guy is :P
To end this, no, my life has not changed lol. I'm still a potato who wants to be a billionaire.
In fact, just now I salin passages from a blog and wrote it in my journal, and why didn't I think of that before ?I've always thought journalling means pouring your hearts out with your OWN WORDS, but hey, copy kerja orang pun boleh as long as you don't publish it kan? Guys am I blabbering lolz what's my point lah.
I'm just saying that, it's okay for me to re-write other people's writings cuz it calms me.....okay so? Sooooo idk.
Here's a beautiful excerpt from a blog shaelaiza.com,
We may not understand God’s plans for us sometimes and why we are blessed with certain gifts or why we have to endure certain challenges but it is important to remember that everything has its time and purpose. The way He responds to our prayers, whether hastens or delays, it is not to make us feel proud or despair, but to remind us that ultimately, we were created to love and serve Him and His creations in the best ways possible. So if He tests you with with loss and pain remember that they are from the one Who loves us more than our own mothers do: Allah who is ar-Rahman (the Lord of Mercy) and ar-Raheem (the Giver of Mercy). When I learned to increase my good opinion of Allah I began to remember what it meant to love Him sincerely.
So much to learn and I'm so glad that I'm so eager and wanting to write(again), my long lost passionnn. Alhamdulillah ya Rabb.
Love,
Bie
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