Dua' for you
Bismillah..
These last two weeks were pretty hard for me. I call it my 'moving on' phase. If I were to tell people about it, I would defnitely be laughed at because I was trying to move on from someone I barely knew, someone I knew for just 10 days, and someone I just started to develop feelings for. I can imagine they'll be like
"Ler, baru kenal 10 hari kot, lek ah"
"Seriously Bie, he's not worth it, budak kecik kot"
"Orang lain breakup after 10 years Bie, kau ni, jumpe pun tak pernah kot"
I couldn't agree more. True guys. Whatever you guys say is so true. But please understand. This is my first time falling for someone and can actually feel he likes me too (even if it was just a little),and, I've never pray for anyone like I do for him ever. I say his name after every prayer, in my istikharah, and even sometimes before I sleep. I do this everyday even after I decided not to be in contact with him anymore. Don't get me wrong, I do pray for my loved ones, but him, ya Allah, banyak kali okay. It's like I continuously pray for him-a complete stranger.
I really don't understand this. I guess, that's what first loves do to us all. Make us blind and dumb. The other day, I told myself I will only pray for him for another month, and I will stop. Tapi this morning, I changed my mind. I said I would pray for him until my wedding day. The morning before nikah would be my last prayer for him and that's it. I was like, "Woah girl are you out of your mind?" But yeah, that was my thought this morning. I might change my mind tomorrow but I don't know. It feels so easy to pray for him I don't know why.
Tibe teringat BCL punya ayat kat late husband dia, "Mendoakanmu adalah cara aku mencintaimu".
And also ayat, "The best gift you can ever give someone is a dua'".
Takpelah, tak salah rasanya aku doakan dia. Mungkin dengan cara berdoa kat dia, buat aku lebih dekat dengan Allah. In fact, I'm currently reading Talk to Allah by Ayesha Syahira. You can say that I'm in the midst of learning the art of dua' because I'm so lacking at this. I hope after reading this book, I will make constant and lots of dua' to my Beloved every single day. insyaAllah.
O' Allah, I'm so confused with your plans for me, but I trust you. I love you.
Love,
Bie
These last two weeks were pretty hard for me. I call it my 'moving on' phase. If I were to tell people about it, I would defnitely be laughed at because I was trying to move on from someone I barely knew, someone I knew for just 10 days, and someone I just started to develop feelings for. I can imagine they'll be like
"Ler, baru kenal 10 hari kot, lek ah"
"Seriously Bie, he's not worth it, budak kecik kot"
"Orang lain breakup after 10 years Bie, kau ni, jumpe pun tak pernah kot"
I couldn't agree more. True guys. Whatever you guys say is so true. But please understand. This is my first time falling for someone and can actually feel he likes me too (even if it was just a little),and, I've never pray for anyone like I do for him ever. I say his name after every prayer, in my istikharah, and even sometimes before I sleep. I do this everyday even after I decided not to be in contact with him anymore. Don't get me wrong, I do pray for my loved ones, but him, ya Allah, banyak kali okay. It's like I continuously pray for him-a complete stranger.
I really don't understand this. I guess, that's what first loves do to us all. Make us blind and dumb. The other day, I told myself I will only pray for him for another month, and I will stop. Tapi this morning, I changed my mind. I said I would pray for him until my wedding day. The morning before nikah would be my last prayer for him and that's it. I was like, "Woah girl are you out of your mind?" But yeah, that was my thought this morning. I might change my mind tomorrow but I don't know. It feels so easy to pray for him I don't know why.
Tibe teringat BCL punya ayat kat late husband dia, "Mendoakanmu adalah cara aku mencintaimu".
And also ayat, "The best gift you can ever give someone is a dua'".
Takpelah, tak salah rasanya aku doakan dia. Mungkin dengan cara berdoa kat dia, buat aku lebih dekat dengan Allah. In fact, I'm currently reading Talk to Allah by Ayesha Syahira. You can say that I'm in the midst of learning the art of dua' because I'm so lacking at this. I hope after reading this book, I will make constant and lots of dua' to my Beloved every single day. insyaAllah.
O' Allah, I'm so confused with your plans for me, but I trust you. I love you.
Love,
Bie
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