Baby Back On Track

It's been a long time eh ? Hisashiburi ne ? As you all (padehal takde orang pun lol) know, I was on my 'moving on' phase. The first three days was tough. I cried quite a bit cuz I miss him. I would become a bit sensitive and think of him on whatever that relates to him. Even till this day (it's nearly a month now), I can't wait to see his IG and Whatsapp story walaupun selalunya nothing interesting pun. And to be frank, ever since I bought that shirt from him, we would occasionally keep in touch. He would sometimes reply to my IG story and me too. Alhamdulillah, I'm getting more comfortable just being friends (like really, just friends) with him than before. I do, still have feelings for him, but I think it's bearable. I still make dua' for him after solat, just because I love saying his name in my dua' (he has such a cute name), but I think I've gradually come to my senses that he's actually not meant for me. 10-year apart, I don't think both of us are suit to be with each other.

And now..I can say I've moved on alhamdulillah (not entirely, but I'm back here writing kan! Hehe). It's been a while since I feel productive. Life's been day in day out je. I don't know why I kept postpone-ing my 'writing job'.Mungkin ikut sangat perasaan malas tu kot.

Just to let you know, that, here's my 6-month plan until the end of 2020 insyaAllah..:-
1. To get 68kg if possible.
2. Keep editing until it's done (My project with my sis)
3. To blog everyday (It's not my official job, but still)
4. To educate myself on marriage (Maybe marriage is not for me, but I guess it's good to just prepare for it right?)
5. To memorize Kanji N5 (I'm on this journey alone, so I need to be patient and persistent at the same time)
6. To memorize Part 3 hafazan (Surah-surah pilihan):-
- Al-Kahfi
- Luqman
- Al-Ahzab
- Al-Hujurat
- Ar-Rahman

Aside from the above, I hope Allah will help me increase my knowledge, while keeping me humble. Ameen.

Love,
Bie